The only thing that I’m praying for now is that my mom won’t find out. See, I’m open to my mom to almost all things and it is really hard to keep a secret as big as this is. I sometimes can’t keep my mouth shut when she started asking, I run out of alibi’s at times too… I just hope when she finds out about this secret relationship of mine, I’m already in college so she doesn’t have the right to scold at me like a six-year old….

Well anyway about today… I did nothing but eat and sit in front of my PC, it’s so good to have my internet connection back.  Next, as I was working on my new fan fiction site papa called and asked if we could have dinner @ The Sofitel, well of course the answer is yes, it’s been a long time since I ate with papa in that hotel. I miss him so much… I just hope that he doesn’t have a new girlfriend and that he and mama were still together. How I wish that everything would turn back to the way it was before.

But there are of course some restrictions or rules regarding our relationship

1)      MUST be SO (Secret On). NO exception.

2)      We can only communicate with the means of our mobile phones and the telephone.

3)      No visitations whatsoever should be done.

4)      I can only go out on a date with him, if Angelie would accompany us.

Well those are the rules. Quite complicated though, nevertheless when I reach college I’ll let mama meet him. But before that happens, I want him to be in a good condition, what I mean here is, he should graduate high school first, then find a suitable course for college and continue his studies. So somehow mama cannot say something bad about him. Angelie, my best friend and his cousin, told me a lot of things about him that I ought to know. Well I understand completely his unlikely stances, that’s why I’ve set some goals that I’m sure will make him somehow change.

1)      Convince him to finish his last year in High school, and convince him to finish college with a course of his choice.

2)      Try to make him less-alcoholic.

3)      Avoid PDA, to shun future problems regarding this manner.

4)      Make him understand that “EDUCATION” should be prioritized first before anything else, including love.

5)      Make him understand that looks doesn’t matter, as long as you have that college diploma in your hands you will be respected no matter what you look like.

So far, those are the goals that I’ve set. I hope this would make everything work out fine; I wanted to bring out the better person in him that’s why I’m setting goals, and would do anything just to achieve them. I wanted to help him fulfill his lifelong dreams, while I’m fulfilling mine too. See, I’m not doing this for a heroic act, but to help him and his family be as respectable as they deserved to be.  

That’s all I got, I’ll be updating again soon…